I've always considered myself a very optimistic, easily happy person who embraces life and all that it's got to give me...be it small, big or medium, long, short, thick or thin. I am a Sanguine person, you see. But despite my Sanguine nature, I don't think I have enuf Sanguinity to withstand Pessimism and negativity from a Melancholic for too long lor.
I just don't understand it, maybe it's a form of sickness or personality thing, you know. Why do some people choose to make themselves angry or pissed off at things all the time? Why can't we keep things simple and just enjoy what we have? I mean, do we have to be angry with the world, understand everything right down to every molecule and reason behind every cell creation? Do we have to evaluate every dot, coma or semi-colon?
I used to drive people nuts because I choose to see what I want to see because they make me happy. That's why I can live in a clutter or mess....I CHOOSE TO SEE THE MESS only when I want to. Otherwise, I can skirt around the mess or clutter and pretend they don't exist. :-) I know. Shameless. Pig.
But that's the way I am - I am made like that. I choose to not let people bring me down. If a friend pisses me off, I pretend I never had that friend. At the end of the day, I want to be surrounded by things that makes me happy, not make me sad.
Maybe it's not such a good trait and yes, it hurts sometimes but I think I live a more meaningful life that way. Why choose to be so mentally tortured by things perceived to be unsolvable or unavoidable. When you can't avoid it, then accept it and move on, right? Just don't keep looking back and let things torture you, right or not?
Am I wrong?
When asked what’s my one single favorite thing to do in the world, I would usually name a whole list of things that I love to do when my work is not screaming at me. Something that takes my mind COMPLETELY off of everyday tasks and relaxes me. Take a guess what it is…. If you say ‘ reading ’, yes, I love reading (especially soppy love stories with lots of sex scenes, please. Hee hee hee ….) and I also love mystery novels but it’s not the first on the list. If you say ‘ playing the piano ’; yes, I love playing the piano. Creating forms a huge part of my life and whenever I play the piano (as inept at it as I am), there’s this tiny little girl inside of me jumping up and down with glee, clapping her hands. It’s my childhood dream to be able to play the piano! And thumping on the keys gives me a sense of satisfaction when I hear the music. If you say ‘ writing ’; You’ve got to be kidding me! You mean I don’t write enough as it is? Case closed. If you say ‘ playing with my kids ’; Yea...
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