One whole year have snuck past without us noticing….today, 7th Sept 2008, is the one year anniversary of a friend’s death. A death that changed a lot of lives, shocked a lot of people, a seemingly unwarranted and unsuspected suicide which woke a lot of people up and sent a lot of people into a pit of sadness that they find a lot of problems getting out of. Although the fog surrounding his suicide remains unclear and answers never found, the searing pain of dealing with it has become far less but I am sure for some, especially his parents and his ‘girlfriend’, the pain must still seem so real and excruciating.
In memory of his death, I just want to write him a note. Since he’s Hokkien (when we meet we speak in Hokkien), I would like to write him a short note today.
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Alvin,
Oi! Ah-neh-khwai chh ni liao hor? Lu hor bo? Kanineh….of course lu hor lah. Hor lang karn lah….ki pun boh kong chh sngia. Ai ki tou ki. Anyway, wa lang hee-bang lu song-song ti ho peng lah, ok? lu happy eh-sai liao lor. Mien sngiu ah-neh ceh em-kngia, ok?
Eh, lu mien lai chui wah, ah si cui Karen, ok? wa lang cai lu ti hor peng chin-chia song, ok liao. Ki meh wa kun eh si mien lai chui wah, ok? wa mai!!!! Lu ai hor wa lang 4D number si-or, you ki chui Donnie lah. Wa eh portion, you hor ee!
Lu eh parents and 789 oo ti lu eh ku chu, so, lu ki kngua ee lang tapi mien kacau ee-lang ok?
Happy-happy lah!!!
Cau o seng…..bai bai.
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Translation: Oi! One year’s gone so quickly. How are you? *bad words*, of course, you’re good! *bad words*, go also never tell anyone! Want to go, go only. Anyway, it is our hope and dream that you’re ‘living’ a better life now, ok? As long as you’re happier there. no need to think of so many things, ok?
Eh, you no need to come and see me and Karen, ok? We all know you are well there, that’s fine already. Tonight, when I go to sleep, don’t come and see me. I don’t want to see you!!! :-) If you want to give me 4D number, go and look for Donnie and give him instead, my portion also give to him first.
Your parents and 789 will be at your place tonight, holding vigil, so, you can go and see them but don’t disturb them ok?
Be happy, I go first…..bye bye
When asked what’s my one single favorite thing to do in the world, I would usually name a whole list of things that I love to do when my work is not screaming at me. Something that takes my mind COMPLETELY off of everyday tasks and relaxes me. Take a guess what it is…. If you say ‘ reading ’, yes, I love reading (especially soppy love stories with lots of sex scenes, please. Hee hee hee ….) and I also love mystery novels but it’s not the first on the list. If you say ‘ playing the piano ’; yes, I love playing the piano. Creating forms a huge part of my life and whenever I play the piano (as inept at it as I am), there’s this tiny little girl inside of me jumping up and down with glee, clapping her hands. It’s my childhood dream to be able to play the piano! And thumping on the keys gives me a sense of satisfaction when I hear the music. If you say ‘ writing ’; You’ve got to be kidding me! You mean I don’t write enough as it is? Case closed. If you say ‘ playing with my kids ’; Yea...
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Alvin
kanasai, wa ai phak lu liao. tnge lu eh lam pah hor ee puah, lu kar chai. tiu!
good night, man. peace!
eh, alvin, post chi-leh picture from afterlife lah, eh-sai-boh?