Unlike other Fridays, I finally dared to take some time off a week day to do....nothing. No work, just messing around with the kids and then at night, dropped the kids off at in-laws, went walking around, steamboat, shopping for clothes for the kids and myself....hanging around with a friend and her teenage daughter....lepaking.
I don't remember the last time I lepak-ed around, you know. Must have been during college days. Ever since I've started working, with the bank, I no longer know how to let go and hang loose. The world is consistently spinning in a web of responsibilities. Having to carry the weight of responsibility for two kids is difficult....especially so if you're doing it around the clock. Being a mother is like that mah....some more I work from home which means I get no time off.
Sometimes I feel guilty for feeling like I want to run away and not bring the kids along. Sometimes I sigh to the kids, "I need a holiday" and they say, "Where are we going???" and I go...."Er....." How do I tell them that I need a holiday away from them? I don't hate them! I love them beyond words!!! I will die for them! But....aiyo, it's tiring mah, caring for them, worrying about them all the time, right? And somemore I have clients hanging off my ass.
So, yesterday was good. Just lepaked and not worry about anything. Tried out clothes without worrying about the kids toppling racks of clothing or running into frustrated shopkeepers.
I think I should do this more often. Hee hee hee.....
I was kind of a little sad when I read the news about this - there will be no live-in Indonesian maids in Malaysia anymore . There are pros and cons to having a live-in maid, as with everything else, but for us, we enjoyed more pros than cons. Back then, when my kids were little, we brought in a family of maids to help with...well, just about everything, and we were like two families merged into one. They ate what we ate, we sleep, they sleep, we shop, they shop, they joke, we laugh, we joke, they laugh...for me, the maid I hired was more like a sister and side-kick to me. For that few years, I was dependent on her to mind-read my schedule and when I need or don't need help. She picked things up quickly and we ended up having lots of moments whereby we were in sync. Today, two of them are on my Facebook and we were gleefully chatting over Facebook Messenger since they've just discovered the wonders of the Internet and Social Media. Since we were more like partners in crim...
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Why am I saying this? Cos we often take our lives, Family, Kids, spouse, colleagues and friends for granted.
We're no better than your late pilot friend if we're in this situattion.
So folks...pls...appreciate your loved ones while you're still alive.
Killer guy