Unlike other Fridays, I finally dared to take some time off a week day to do....nothing. No work, just messing around with the kids and then at night, dropped the kids off at in-laws, went walking around, steamboat, shopping for clothes for the kids and myself....hanging around with a friend and her teenage daughter....lepaking.
I don't remember the last time I lepak-ed around, you know. Must have been during college days. Ever since I've started working, with the bank, I no longer know how to let go and hang loose. The world is consistently spinning in a web of responsibilities. Having to carry the weight of responsibility for two kids is difficult....especially so if you're doing it around the clock. Being a mother is like that mah....some more I work from home which means I get no time off.
Sometimes I feel guilty for feeling like I want to run away and not bring the kids along. Sometimes I sigh to the kids, "I need a holiday" and they say, "Where are we going???" and I go...."Er....." How do I tell them that I need a holiday away from them? I don't hate them! I love them beyond words!!! I will die for them! But....aiyo, it's tiring mah, caring for them, worrying about them all the time, right? And somemore I have clients hanging off my ass.
So, yesterday was good. Just lepaked and not worry about anything. Tried out clothes without worrying about the kids toppling racks of clothing or running into frustrated shopkeepers.
I think I should do this more often. Hee hee hee.....
When asked what’s my one single favorite thing to do in the world, I would usually name a whole list of things that I love to do when my work is not screaming at me. Something that takes my mind COMPLETELY off of everyday tasks and relaxes me. Take a guess what it is…. If you say ‘ reading ’, yes, I love reading (especially soppy love stories with lots of sex scenes, please. Hee hee hee ….) and I also love mystery novels but it’s not the first on the list. If you say ‘ playing the piano ’; yes, I love playing the piano. Creating forms a huge part of my life and whenever I play the piano (as inept at it as I am), there’s this tiny little girl inside of me jumping up and down with glee, clapping her hands. It’s my childhood dream to be able to play the piano! And thumping on the keys gives me a sense of satisfaction when I hear the music. If you say ‘ writing ’; You’ve got to be kidding me! You mean I don’t write enough as it is? Case closed. If you say ‘ playing with my kids ’; Yea...
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Why am I saying this? Cos we often take our lives, Family, Kids, spouse, colleagues and friends for granted.
We're no better than your late pilot friend if we're in this situattion.
So folks...pls...appreciate your loved ones while you're still alive.
Killer guy