I was reading one of my many journals and I found this entry.
I WANT TO SAVE UP FOR:-I wrote this on the 23rd Nov 2005. I achieved all of those early 2006...maybe like....between March 2006 - May 2006. Fast leh? I put all my energy into purchasing those material things....my everything....EVERYTHING! And I reached those goals of mine in one clean swooping sweep. Now, before you clap your hands or start wondering what kind of nonsense I want to brag about today, hear me out. I paid hard-earned upfront cash for those things. No hutang-hutang, ok? I paid the befuddled music school RM3,800 in cash....sit there and count. The fella look at me, no cheque ah? No credit card ah? I also paid for those things in health. Because of my work and my situation and my desperate attempt to prove myself and not disappoint the others around me, I paid for those stuff in stress. If you've been reading my heart-to-heart ramblings, you will know that I have this issue with stress. And I don't talk too much about it....usually. But it has affected me tremendously and wrecked havoc in my system. And I think it's about time I open my mouth and talk about why buying a digital camera, a piano and a computer for the kids took away things from me. Wait ah....
- A new digital camera (budget $1,500)
- A keyboard or piano ($600 - $800) ed- NOT POSSIBLE-lah! Dreaming-ah? In the end, paid $3,800 for a digital piano
- A computer for the kids ($2,000++++++)