It's 8.15pm and there's only one word on my mind right now. Tired. Another word. Exhausted. Bamboozled. Torpedoed.
At times like this, I wish there was someone who could help me with the laundry, clean up the final few dishes, put away the cups, hang up the clothes and tutor the kids. I don't have the energy tonight and I just wanna....you know....plop onto something really fluffy and nice...and cool.
I am not only shouldering the responsibility of being a mom, I am also a myriad of other things and sometimes people are not very understanding or compromising about that. They see me at home and think that I am sitting here, shaking my leg, chatting with friends and basically having the time of my life.
The dark circles under my eyes tell a different story. The things we do for the kids....the family. I never knew this is what mothers do because if I did, I would have been better to my own mom.
I am so tired after washing down the back kitchen and dishes. And yet, the stupid dryer is beeping away telling me that the clothes in it are dry.
I just wish someone would do it for me....just for tonight because I feel like collapsing.
I have been doing this pose, part of Cosmic Dance (a type of yoga, I am assuming), called Stargazer pose without knowing it is called Stargazer's pose a lot in the past. You see, sometimes, I don't follow the rules and come up with my own stretches and poses. It is fun. I have on some music, nice, soothing music or just anything I can click on. Then I go with the flow, letting my hair down. Just moving to the music...and that is when I come up with the above Stargazer's pose. This pose really stretches your sides. Keep your eyes on the outstretched hand if you are keeping it pointed to the top, as if you are waving or connecting to a higher energy from the Universe. Your arms will ache a little but hey, toned arms, here you come! :-) For those who want a bigger stretch, it is safe to slowly and gently move the lifted hand towards your back...don't overdo it, listen to your body's complaints and respect it. You don't have to prove anything to anyone, reme...
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But yeah, there are days where I just leave the dishes in the sink and washing in the washer and turn myself in. Unfortunately it's worse when I get up in the morning and the dishes are still in the sink and washing still in the washer!
Hang in there. You just earned another voucher to yell at your kids that you did EVERYTHING for them when they were kids and they'd better ....... (fill in whatever you want them to do) :D
*hugs*