It's 8.15pm and there's only one word on my mind right now. Tired. Another word. Exhausted. Bamboozled. Torpedoed.
At times like this, I wish there was someone who could help me with the laundry, clean up the final few dishes, put away the cups, hang up the clothes and tutor the kids. I don't have the energy tonight and I just wanna....you know....plop onto something really fluffy and nice...and cool.
I am not only shouldering the responsibility of being a mom, I am also a myriad of other things and sometimes people are not very understanding or compromising about that. They see me at home and think that I am sitting here, shaking my leg, chatting with friends and basically having the time of my life.
The dark circles under my eyes tell a different story. The things we do for the kids....the family. I never knew this is what mothers do because if I did, I would have been better to my own mom.
I am so tired after washing down the back kitchen and dishes. And yet, the stupid dryer is beeping away telling me that the clothes in it are dry.
I just wish someone would do it for me....just for tonight because I feel like collapsing.
I was kind of a little sad when I read the news about this - there will be no live-in Indonesian maids in Malaysia anymore . There are pros and cons to having a live-in maid, as with everything else, but for us, we enjoyed more pros than cons. Back then, when my kids were little, we brought in a family of maids to help with...well, just about everything, and we were like two families merged into one. They ate what we ate, we sleep, they sleep, we shop, they shop, they joke, we laugh, we joke, they laugh...for me, the maid I hired was more like a sister and side-kick to me. For that few years, I was dependent on her to mind-read my schedule and when I need or don't need help. She picked things up quickly and we ended up having lots of moments whereby we were in sync. Today, two of them are on my Facebook and we were gleefully chatting over Facebook Messenger since they've just discovered the wonders of the Internet and Social Media. Since we were more like partners in crim...
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But yeah, there are days where I just leave the dishes in the sink and washing in the washer and turn myself in. Unfortunately it's worse when I get up in the morning and the dishes are still in the sink and washing still in the washer!
Hang in there. You just earned another voucher to yell at your kids that you did EVERYTHING for them when they were kids and they'd better ....... (fill in whatever you want them to do) :D
*hugs*